The Middle

Thursday, July 01, 2021

I'm rushing. To put into words this feeling welling up from within.

It doesn't really make sense. I actually don't know why but I feel relieved. Possibly, even happy.

Today is July 1.

I wasn't able to squeeze a morning workout in or sleep early the night before. It doesn't look like my ideal day.

But it is one of those rare days I'm able to convince myself to do what I have to do and not end up procrastinating until 2-3AM.

Still pretty late though, currently 11:19PM on my clock.

I wonder why July 1 makes me feel this way. Like I want to at least relish it.
Or at least have a post on my blog dated Thursday, July 1, 2021

It's the middle.

Where one phase ends and one starts.

The 7th month of the year. The official start of the remaining half.
And so it feels.

I've been working almost all day. Pushing through. Only taking breaks to eat brunch and then late dinner. I'm not sure why I should be happy about that. I like my job just the normal amount.

I can't pinpoint the exact reason why... 

Why am I'm relieved (to the extent of happy), even when my mind and body feels exhausted.

Maybe it's just because it's the middle. And to be honest, I'm a bit excited about tomorrow.

Is it a gut feel? Is it a premonition of a transformation? Is it that change I've been waiting for?

I know I sound overdramatic. But no matter. 

I'm just glad I took the time to enjoy this moment and these feelings however unexplainable.

Things doesn't always have to make sense, right? 

Okay, it's 11:33 now and it's already been around 15-20 mins. 

Good night from this part of the world!


Photo by NATHAN MULLET on Unsplash

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